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Okays got back all of mua results back. Forgot the scores so shall just put the grades in (I put all my tests papers in my locker and not want to see them again. XD jk jk.. duh I’ll take them out for revision. haha)

In order of paper gotten back first:

Physics : S

Chem : S

GP: S

Geog: D

Math : C

Haha.. average grade will be E. Still lower than 50% which sucks ofcourse. To say that I’m not disappointed in it is the same as saying the world is going to blast up into a million pieces tmr. (for those wols ppl, It basically means I AM disappointed) As a matter of fact, have been rather depressed these few days. Not talking much in sch or on msn. been sleeping early, and not really talking much to anyone. Gahh.. but have to get over with it soon. Knew where I went wrong. GP is cos of AQ and essay. Math and chem.. lack practice. Math, xtremely careless and spent too long. And Geog, heh.. only memorised 2 topics? XD.

Yep.. gonna start anew now. Though still feeling abit hurt. Don’t worry peeps. I’m all right. I’m not emo-ing abt this either. Just hurt abit. haha. the race till promos starts now then. Interesting journey. I suddenly feel motivated to start studying again. okays. I shld sleep early. adios bloggy!

Interesting…

They are really starting to fade away

every single one of them

I dunno why.. but

I doubt I can or will do anything abt it

I’m sorry on my part

i’m simply facing reality here

Okay. Not exactly a great day today. Well… nothing seems to go right anyways. Least I managed to endure it through. Dunno how I did it either. Managed to just laugh it off. Haha. Even though I know I’m not suppose to.

On the bus today. Thought something was gonna go wrong and well.. the trouble didn’t really start here. But it was rather funny. So I’ll tell u about it. Haha. Okay. Reached the school bus stop. As usual it was crowded. So was about to go off. The bus doors opened. A guy got off the bus. And another one. And a third one. Before the fourth managed to got off (which is the ex-vice-capt of recre bad. I’m her successor lah), the door closed straight into her face!! what nonsense is that! and we kept on pressing the door stop bell but the driver didn’t bother and just drove off. Sheesh… These are the types of bus driver attitudes I kinda hate. Not caring about passengers what crap is that man. Had to walk quite a distance back to the school gate. Lucky we are still early. Around 4 of us had to walk back. And along the walk we were just laughing at the incident. Haha. Retarded RJ people. Okay I’m one of them. XD

Got into school. Blah blah. Geog was… okay shan’t mention the stuff here. Watched a video and was rather sick. So yea..shall skip the details.

Went for chem practical. This is the interesting part. I BROKE A MERCURY THERMOMETER!!!! like how cool is that?! hahahaha!!! had topay 5 bucks for it. Quite silly actually. Wanted to take out a beaker from the basket. The thermometer was in it too. So it slipped out. Hit the table and PIANG! it broke. And u can see the mercury leaking out. blobs of percury. haha. I didn’t even know how to react. The thing broke and I just said out loud "Orh.. Ma’am. Break liao leh.." "What broke?" "The thermometer" (At this instant people started to rush to my table) "Okay! there’s no need to crowd! evacuate the table immediately! Hanif move to the back of the class and do the experiment there" ( No it wasn’t a punishment. There’s extra sets of materials which can be used at the back. Haha) So yea.. Rather interesting on how they had to clear it. Used some powder thingy and covered those blobs of mercury. If u ask me, it looked like the unicorn blood they used in Harry Potter. Quite cool. I assumed the powder thingy are suppose to react with the mercury so that it won’t be poisonous anymore or something and the guy clearing up just wiped it away after that. Hahaha. Okay so that was chem.

Move on to GP! On a sadder note though. Got my third "S" Grade for my CTs. sigh.. atleast I expected geting S for chem and phy. But somehow or another, I screwed up my essay for GP. Didn’t expect to fail my content. oh wells.. gonna consult my GP teacher tmr for my mistakes. It’s just… super sad.. Heh. I dunno how to describe the feeling. Just feel empty inside. Which is probably why I can still laugh and smile whilst normal people would be crying? haha. Probably got lowest in class. The only S grade I guess. oh wells.. can’t do anything for now can I? just mug hard for the next one. Hope my math aint that bad.. I know my geog is screwed also. Cheer up boy! Yep yep.

And that marks the end of the eventful day? hahaha. Quite an interesting day. I finally cleared my room too. not exactly my room. My part of the room that is. lol. Okay. Gotta go do my chemistry remedial task. Till the next time I meet u bloggy. Chaoz..

It’s depressing to get these grades

But it’s more depressing to realise that I’m not even affected by them.

I really hate this

What the heck is wrong with my head

I’m suppose to be crying or something.

Not smiling and laughing.

Sheesh…

Get some feelings u S person

Gah.. such a bad day today was

I dunno what went wrong

but things are just not going on the way which I want it to

I guess I really do dream too much

Have to get rid of this habit soon

thinking too much and forgetting about reality

ain’t gonna talk abt what happened today

as you probably’ve known alrd,

I don’t blog abt my life or events which happened

it’s mostly thoughts that are rambling on in my mind

or when I need to let something out

Oh yea… weird things are happening again

hard to elaborate

and I guess I shouldn’t be telling anyone about it either

just gut feelings on wad I should do

wadeva it is, just wanna say this

stay strong dude, a door of happiness have just slammed closed in ur face

but another door have opened behind u

face away from that closed door and turn around to enter the other..

Oh yea.. just took some personality test thingy (Credits to LCC here)

and I must say the results are rather accurate

but none of them are what I already know

so it’s rather.. well.. boring in a way

more fun to let ppl try and see their results

haha

All rite then.. till the next time I decide to blog

chaoz..

hahaha!

okay this is quite a random post

just wanted to tell dear bloggy something

Anyways,

Had PE today

Played soccer lah

and due to the crocodile like state of my shoes,

I had to take them out.

so was running ard barefooted and such

and duh had some random kicking in the ground and at ppl

so PE ended

and later at 6pm which is wad… 8 hours later?

when I took off my shoes

I realised my toes are swollen!!

and only then did I realise some of were sprained

Like how cool is that I didn’t feel pain for 8 hrs straight!!

haha!!

okay I know this is random but yea.

To me it was weird, and funny mebbe

hahaha.

okays! gtg back to my math

math is fun!

must stick to that mindset!

wheee!!!! I

‘ll be blogging abt my results sooon! BUAIZ!!

slowly

people are just fading away

it won’t take a day or 2

it’ll probably take months or a year.

maybe more

but it’s happening

there’s no doubt about it

I’m losing them

and I cant help

it can’t run away from the simple truth of reality

as what someone said to me before

they’ll just simply fade

fade away into nothingness

the process is happening now

and it just hurts alot

I dunno how I can stand this

sooner or later it will no longer exist

and the farewell?

there probably won’t be one

but the roads will diverge…

thank you peeps…

Crying in silence?

don’t bro you’re strong

and u’ll always be

memories will stay and be glad for it

stay strong as the fire burns…

There are things which I can confide into people for help

Bu there are others which  just can’t do so.

There are reasons behind them

and all that I want you to know is to understand

I want to get through this alone

not with the help of anyone

and not with negative consequences either

Just let me be alone and we wont touch the topic all right

If u truly want the best for me, then just leave me alone with my thoughts…

Sometimes I think my existence is the cause of all these problems. Sometimes I just rather give up and die. I might as well vanish from this world all together for peace to be mantained.

I Hey there people. Just came back from Bintan Leadership Camp thing. Truly an extrordinary, unexpected and extremely wonderful experience. Probably one of the best camps which I had ever went through in my whole life. Enjoyable yet meaningful. I’ll be blogging abt the camp another time. For now I just wanna thank these few special people that were constantly together with me for the past 4 days…

Mu Quan

Evidently the joker of the group. Always cracking up corny, crazy or wadeva nonsensical kinda jokes. Never fails to light up the mood even when spirits are low. Oh peeps, a lesson to be learnt. Never judge a person’s character via his/her size XD. Seriously, this guy is GREAT to have in the group. To Mu Quan, I thank you, for being an extremely great friend to have (esp at night :P) and I can see the great leader that’s within u. Though u tend to joke alot, there are times when u speak with wisdom whenever asked for suggestions. And for that I really thank you alot.

Xin Er

It’s quite evident as to why she was head prefect of RGS last year I guess. Her leadership qualities are like WOWWW… hahaha. Seriously this is one person whom I doubt will ever get angry that easily. Always having that cool and calm personality, giving valuable opinions through her experiences and never failing to give her best for the group. A figure who will gain respect from the majority rather easily as well. To you Canoe Capt, I thank you for sharing your invaluable thoughts to us all and being such a great friend to everyone. We really learnt a lot from you. There are times which we do bully u but don’t take it too hard yea? Just meant as a joke. XD And thanks too for not being angry with us. Oh and do remember. Always always never give up. Look on the bright side and just laugh it out. Hope may be the last thing u have to depend on when everything else is gone. Don’t lose it. Cos if u do, everything is bound to go wrong. Keep in touch!! Oh yea.. I forgot to tell you. You really have a great singing voice!!

Toon Wei

A3’s MASCOTT!!! Hahaha! Hope you didn’t mind us keeping up the habit of calling ur name in that awfully melodious tone yea! It really kinda made me happy when there are moments when I was feeling sad. Thanks a lot man! Your name makes my life brighter! Hahaha!! Anyway, this guy is an awfully nice yet weird person. U can never guess wad he is ever gonna do next. Somehow he always goes missing also. Never fails to be the unique person who does things differently from the rest of us. But it’s okay!! Cos uniqueness is exactly wad leads to creativity and with no doubt u have brought a lot of creative ideas to the group. It was great  to have you as a groupmate man! A TENT MATE as well!! (if u know wad I mean. XD) Do say hi when we meet in school ayte! TOOOOOOOOOONNNN WEEEEIIIIIII AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! Hahahaha!!

Jiang He

The first “He” and the Chinese checkers “shi fu”! (did I spell that correctly? Bleagh..) never got to talk to you much during the duration of the camp but from wad I’ve observed from you, u seem to be one who is very very objective and always seeks chances whenever u can help. Using your “judo strength” that u have, u managed to contribute to the group a lot physically! Honestly, I doubt we could have accomplished a lot of the tasks without ur presence as a group member. Thanks A LOT yea Jiang He! I’m not saying that this is the only time or area where u have contributed, but this is the most evident one. Ofcourse there are a lot more! It’s uncountable! Hope u have a good hol ahead Judo QUEEN! XD

Lee He

This is another joker and the second “He” from the group! Prickly heat partying all night long. Giving himself a double dose when he KNOWS that it will kill him. Wah seriously one big joker. Always smiling as well. Even when he sleeps (I saw it! I dunno wad he was dreaming of lah.. but yea.. still smiling XD) But at points where we need to be serious, this guy can really change his character. It’s amazing to see how he can be serious yet crazy at the same time though. I really admire this councilor. Thanks for being such a great friend man! Oh did I mention he has a great heart too? Never fail to look after the welfare of the group and such. It’s a sad thing he got the tummy ache on the third day too. Didn’t get to enjoy the fun. Luckily it subsided yea? Hahaha. See you around in school buddy! We’ll get to enjoy some prickly heat party soon if possible! XD

Jasmine

Hey there treasuerer!! Never expected you to be in the same group as me! Haha! Oh well.. I hope u’ve seen how I go around working and such in this camp since we are in the same exco of a committee.. I’ve certainly seen and get to know how you go around working with problems which you faced and I must say they are extremely unique. Though not as physically strong as the others in the group, this maths genius here never fails to help out the group and never had given up easily. Always wanting to paddle for the “dragon sampan” despite the fact that she is tired already. It’s truly amazing to see this girl persevere throughout the entire duration of the camp. And for that, I thank you for being such a great team-mate!!! I’ll see you soon yea!! XD

Jonathan

Finally get to feel the “sensational” experience? Hahaha!! Welcome to the club man! This harmonica pro is extremely fun to have in the group. His beat boxing skills rocks and he’s one big entertainer for everyone. U didn’t really show that much of ur personality during the camp yea but I can see that u make one damn good instructor from those comments u gave from that rafting exercise. Thanks a lot from being A3 a great and complete team man! Hope those cuts on ur legs heal soon yea!! See you in school buddy!

Grace

The other singer in the group and the person who thinks in UNIQUE ways!! I SERIOUSLY AND SINCERELY WANNA THANK YOU FOR BRINGING US INTO THOSE TALL GRASSES!!! HAHAHA!!! It’s really damn freaking cool! I’ve always wanted to see what it’s like to bash through the jungle with grass as high as you are. And you made us all do it! Sheesh you’re the greatest man! Ur high spirits for the team has always made everyone smile whenever they look at you. Never failing to try your best to keep your spirits up high during those hard times. A GREAT NAVIGATOR TOO!! U manage to find the shortcut for us!! And led us to China!! Hahaha!! Sheesh I can never forget that experience. Thanks a lot for it yea!! ALL THE BEST BW CAPTAIN!!!

All in all, THANKS A3 FOR MAKING THE CAMP SUCH A WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE FOR ME AND FOR YOURSELVES!!! HOPE WE KEEP IN TOUCH YEA!! I MISS YOU PEEPS!!  TAKE CARE AND GOOD LUCK IN MUGGING!!!!

heh.. firstly I apologise for the one chunk of post.
it’s suppose to be like after every sentence then the next line.
and got paragraph one.
dunno why become like that.
ANYWAY, CONTINUED…

Reached back to campsite at around 11 plus.
and HELL THE SKY IS DAMN FREAKING NICE!!!
I know we all built a basha (some kinda retarded tent) before.
but there are like 20 guys needed to squeeze inside it?!
RETARDED!!
I just took my sleeping bag and lay outside to sleeep ah!
and it’s MUCH MORE COOLING!.
okay so me and Haris laid out of sleeping bags and just lie on top of it on the grass.
slept for erm… 1 hour.
then woke up suddenly.
wanted to TURN my body.
and GUESS WAD?!
the other side of my sleeping bag was FREAKING WET!
I would have found it to be damn “coool” if I wasn’t TIRED.
seriously! now I only have one part of the sleeping bag to myself!
not fair!!!!
GAH!
no choice but had to sleep.
but now no peace.
scared I’ll get wet.
sobs….
but it’s nice to just lie down and stare at those stars and moon.
Mr Pang brought a telescope and refused to sleep some more.
damn… I miss that environment.

okays! next morning.
nothing much alrd.
cooked breakfast.
everybody seemed half dead except for Vaish (as usual XD).
and hiked back to the jetty.
think I’ll skip the journey besides the fact that the bus was EEERILY QUIET.
most are sleeping.
ppl like me who are forced not to sleep after RIRC hikes just can’t close my eyes.
hahahaha.
or maybe I did for a while XD

and then comes ROPES COURSE.
I’m the first to climb up once again!!! WHEEEEE!!!!
so fun!!!
quite okay lah.
not so challenging.
Yin Xin is such a great climbing partner!
wheeeee!!!
hahahaha! provided with alot of help and I must say she’s quite daring as a girl.
Compliments to you Yin Xin! climbed up the ice cream sticks.
I didn’t realise how high we went.
oh well… actually quite short lah.
hahahaha.
didn’t get to do the other one.
my leg was stinging anyway.
so just spent my time belaying which is rather fun also.
hanging the person in mid air.
refusing to let him/her down. XD

then came part 2 of the ropes course.
and this is the freaky part.
walking on a thin piece of plank high up in the air!
can’t hold anything okay!
thrilling man!
and Wanqi can do it super fast lah! siao!!!
she’s really not afraid of anything I tell you!
I bet it’s too easy for her
hahahaha!
then have go across using some hanging logs
hard to explain
it’s like logs
hanging in mid air.
suspended only by ropes.
and u have to walk from one log to another.
over a height of more than 10m mebbe?
freaky as usual.
but managed to go across.
It’s really all in the mind.
just have to force urself to go across lah.
hahahahaa!

And that’s the end of everything!
Super short duration.
I wish it was much longer.
Nonetheless, THANKS TO THE INSTRUCTORS FOR HELPING US!!!
AND 6X IS THE BEST CLASS ONE CAN EVER HAVE!! WHOOO HOOO!!! XD

This is amazing..
I’m actually blogging about this… hahaha.
but I guess there must be an impact to the class camp.
quite a different experience though it’s held at the normal old ubin island.
I kinda miss that place. lolx.
oh well.. I need to rush this so I can get back to physics.
I WANNA PON SCH TMR!!! GAH!!!

okays anyway,
reported to school normally.
see all those big bags.
I THOUGHT I brought too little stuff with the big bag of mine.
but SOME people can fit everything in their school bag! NOT FAIR!!!
gah nemai.
I hate to squeez things in my bag and turn it into a balloon anyway.
haha.
so yea..
took bus to ubin.
the usual bumboat ride.
kinda sad that the boat didn’t start bobbing up and down.
it was a rather smooth ride to ubin.
with Mr Yang paying for all of us. XD.
OH YEA!! we ate at changi village.
and that’s where we bought “STUFF”.
hehe.. fun stuff fun stuff.

Reached ubin.
went to exercise spending power (according to Ai Chin).
hahaha.
and starting hiking.
we were given a map (frankly I didn’t need it though).
told to head to NPCC campsite.
and my some of my poor classmates don’t trust me that I know the way.. Awww…
hahaha.
oh wells they still followed me in the end.
and I SWEAR that this is the NOISIEST hike in pulau ubin I ever had!
HAHAHA!!!
I mean come on lah…
all those RIRC and VIP hikes in pulau ubin.
“No cheering or making too much noise. You’ll disturb wildlife”.
That rule is GONE NOW!.
and thanks to our dear Vaish and Gang, we started SINGING.
singing wad?.
a few examples, stand by me, india national anthem, china national anthem, school song blah blah.
as u can see, those are SUPER RANDOM SONGS!!!
and it’s ALL THE WAY TO THE CAMPSITE!.
Hilarious journey I tell you! hahahaha!.
but that’s not really the fun part yet.

reached the campsite.
waited for the other class.
turned into monkeys again.
and build the traditional old basha.
and being traditional, we are always the last one to finish building it while others are already pumping their “banana boats”.
basically it’s those kinda boats shaped like banana where u need to inflate them. hehehe.
Had to build a raft using those bananas..
We’re given 7 of them.
so formation became 2-3-2.
tied them up together with our pro knots skills (as if!).
but at least they are tight. haha.

went for the life vest testing thingy again.
And as usual I was having the time of my life in the water!! hahahaha!
life vest are cool stuff.
they keep u afloat (like duh rite?) and so u can do anything in the water. XD.
me, kevin, damien and a few others were splashing water like nobody’s business.
damn childish, which is wad I’m known for anyway..
haha.
launched the raft aka banana boats to the sea and off we go!.
well… not exactly OFF, .
we kinda got stuck fighting the current.
I swear that we were paddling forward but the boat moved backwards.
Damn freaking hilarious!
20 guys in the boat and 7 girls can’t fight the current!.
Qoute from wanqi “You guys got no balls!”
LOL!
and there goes our instructor who had to pull us back to the shore.
seriously damn paiseh!
maluating man! lolx!
her with he small small boat/kayak pulling us back to the shore.
while we slack inside the boat.
me hitting the drum, .
yun sheng pointing up and saying “EH! EAGLE!!!” with that little girl voice of hers. (NO OFFENCE! XD).
and others who were suppose to paddle just slacking around. LOL!
after like 10 mins we FINALLY hit the shore sia.
and the DUMB ME, jumped out of the kayak.
okay that might not seem so dumb but amazingly there was a rock beneath the water and there goes the skin at my knee.
all SCRAPED OFF.
BYE SKIN!
so there’s now one big wound at my knee area there.
I swear everytime I go for water activity I surely will get an injury one.
hahahaha.
Neon blood ooozed out (according to wanqi and sally).
cos apparently it’s like super bright red or pinkish.
and let me remind everyone that sea water got salt inside.
so u can imagine wad kinda pain it is lah eh.
hahahha!..
waddle waddle out of the sea.
went to toilet and wash the wound.
kept all those boats.
and went back to SLACK! .
Own time own target that is.
so bathed and set up basha.
and slacked around.
got my wound patched up together with bhismo (splinter in finger) and kevin (skin tore of his big toe).

then came… dinner.
cook cook some veggie soup.
I dunno lah.
to me it seemed okay .
the food that is.
but others found it unsatisfying.
probably cos I eat anything and everything that is edible.
so I don’t really care about the taste.
hahahaha.
cooked and ate till like 9pm .
I love the environment by that time.
super dark .
and I SWEAR that the sky was freaking beautiful.
stars are spread out all around .
u can see concellations everywhere!!.
to RI peeps, there are much more stars than those that u can see from the raffles square at night.
it’s damn freaking cool..
the moon was shining damn brightly also.

which comes to the exciting part.
after dinner we went for night walk.
not just any night walk.
From the NPCC campsite we had to go to Noordin beach.
short distance.
but no lights should be out.
thought it was kinda freaky at first.
but it turned out to be damn cool lah!.
I can see in the dark! YAY!
oh yea!.
Everyone’s faces suddenly became super pale under the moonlight!
freaky!.
u’re like staring into ghosts .
especially if they are wearing dark coloured clothes.
it’s like seeing a floating head or something.
the hair became white also okay.
so yea just kept on walking.
we were suppose to be silent.
but then again, undoubtly, the usual gang was laughing all the way.
hahahaha…
not that I’m blaming them
it’s quite nice to hear them have fun throughout the hike. :)..
reached the beach and there were like 5 dogs sleeping in the beach.
oh by the way.
Emo people! go to the beach at night! .
It’s such a better place than in the morning!
DAMN I WANTED TO SLEEP THERE LAH!
the environment is super cool.
hearing the waves .
seeing the moon and stars.
and everyone was looking in one direction.
towards the sea.
god knows what they are thinking of.
but I bet it’s something meaningful.
perfect time for us to reflect on stuff.
Lucky I wasn’t in an emo mood.
hahahaha.
stayed quiet for like 5-10 mins there.
total silence.
nice and peaceful.
I love nature! hahaha.

then played SPARKLERS! (remember the “STUFF” we said earlier? yea this was it).
hahahaha.
Haris made a few rockets earlier.
sad that it kinda failed .
but we had fun playing.
pitch dark and we were spinning the sparklers around.
one got stuck into a tree (I wonder who did it. XD).
but it came down lah..
hahahaha.
sparklers session ended and then comes gabriel’s show.
he built some kinda structure or monument or something with the sand.
quite funny to see it..
especially when jokes from 6X were being made for it..
hahahaha.
headed back to the campsite once again and had debrief.

sadly I need to cont studying now. hahahaha. maybe cont blogging later.

I’m damn freaking pissed now.. seriously.. damn in a fucking bad mood. everyone’s being super irrational. no one tries to understand wad the fuck we are doing. damn the bloody world. see lah… fucked up world. fucked up society. nothing that we do is ever right. there’s no fucking trust at all. gone… everything is freaking gone. where the fuck is the point of going to all those stuff. fucked up situations